Stillness.

I find that the closer I grow to the heart of God, the more I long for stillness. This is rather ironic considering that most of my friends and family would say that I am always busy....never taking time to just "be" Sadly enough, this is true....my day usually consist of class, work, meetings, homework, lunch/dinner/coffee with friends leaving little to no time of just pure stillness but instead constant movement throughout the day. I have several theories about why stillness is such a hard discipline for me to master. I am certain that when I take time to be completely still before my creator, I will not walk away the same....I can't. His voice is so impactful in my life that to sit down and truly listen to what He has to tell me will require change in my life...it will require repentance. I would much perfer an easier way of just waking up each day being more and more conformed into His image.....that is not the way it works, not completly at least. You see, when I am still, when I am silent, when I am attentive to Him, what follows is conviction, refinement and ultimately a call to die, to sacrifice my will for His purpose. Are these things at the heart of what I desire? Absolutely. Is it still difficult all the same? Yes.

Elisabeth Elliot says "I think it is possible to learn stillness--but only if it is seriously sought." I pray that I will not only learn stillness but that I would seek it....